I don’t really even know what to say, but felt like I needed to write something tonight.
My city was hit by a tornado tonight. I’m fine, everyone I know is safe as far as I know, there were no fatalities and only minor injuries have been reported so far. For now, for me at least, the panic is over. I’m lucky.
When I heard the emergency alert and realized it was a tornado warning, I had a full blown panic attack. Before the tornados last year I hate to say I never took tornado warnings in my city as seriously as I should have, because tornados just didn’t happen right in the city. After what happened last year, and now again tonight, I can’t not to take it seriously anymore.
My city was (and is) already in a state of emergency due to flooding this spring. There are people whose homes were damaged by the tornados last year who are still struggling to repair and recover. This is the new normal with climate change. Things like this will keep happening unless we do everything we possibly can to fix or to least put a halt the damage we’re doing. That absolutely terrifies me. The idea that even if we do put a halt to the damage, these kinds of disasters could continue with the same frequency and intensity as we’re experiencing now because of the level of damage already done terrifies me. The fact that humanity as a whole isn’t doing everything within our power to try and stop this is fucking terrifying. And I don’t understand it. On a good day, I don’t understand it, and this was not a good day.
I’m lucky. I’m damned lucky. There are completely devastating and destructive natural disasters that happen all over the world that are so horrifying I can’t even begin to imagine what they would be like to live through or try and recover from.
There isn’t a point to this post. It’s probably disjointed and rambling, but that’s kind of where my head is at tonight, thinking about all of this.
I’m a mixed up bag of emotions. I’m sad and scared but also angry. I’m angry because we could be doing so much more to combat climate change, but it’s just not happening and we have people in positions of power who refuse to believe (or admit) that climate change is even real. That makes me so mad and depressed and scared.
I’ll try and write something more fun and sewing related soon. I’ve been non-stop busy lately and last month was really hard so I haven’t been around as much as I’ve wanted to be, but I’m going to try harder to post more (and get caught up on my emails! I’m so behind on that and I’m so, so sorry to everyone I’ve left hanging) I’d better end this post here though because it’s already a mess, I just needed to get this out tonight, even if it did come out scattered.
My heart goes out to everyone who has been affected by natural disasters in my city, and around the globe. ❤